Alanis Morissette left in agony by depression battle
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The Ironic singer welcomed son Ever in 2010, and has admitted she struggled to get to grips with motherhood after being overwhelmed by post-natal depression following a "harrowing" home birth.
Now the star reveals she felt so low she was left in pain and was despondent about the world around her.
Morissette tells British magazine You, "I had a natural birth at home in my bedroom. It was very long - over 25 hours - and harrowing. Not unusually for me, I was silent, so it felt like this long drug trip of a prayer that was physically excruciating. My husband saved the day. When I asked him, he would squeeze my head. At other times he would just be there and that was all I needed.
"The degree and intensity of my post-natal depression shocked me. I am predisposed to depression, but what surprised me this time was the physical pain. I hadn't realized the depths to which you can ache - limbs, back, torso, head, everything hurt - and it went on for 15 months. I felt as if I was covered in tar and everything took 50 times more effort than normal.
"I wished I could have cried but there was no relief during that time; my version of depression is almost below crying where there is just despondency... I had various therapies and now I feel all light and springy. Thankfully, it didn't interfere with the bond with my son, although I think that has strengthened since I got better in April."
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